me fui a los bosques

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

fear nada
I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan- like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion. For most men, it appears to me, are in a strange uncertainty about it, whether it is of the devil or of God, and have somewhat hastily concluded that it is the chief end of man here to "glorify God and enjoy him forever."
Thoureau.. ( Walden)

una inspiracion... mi pelicula favorita.. la que cambió todo.. la que siempre cambia todo,,,

ES

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

es

donde yo empiezo, tu acabas mi amor, ahora somos circulos, cuando tu vives durante el sol , mi vida va con la luna..EStamos en diferentES ESquinas de ESte mundo.. pero EStamos mas cerca que nunca... ES ES ES::: bonita palabra....ES un circulo que nunca acaba, ES un nudo infinito..un celtic love Knot tatuado en el corazon...

ES......

ES
Un bonito verbo,, una palabra que significa presente.
Aunque son dos grandes letras, dos grandes inicios

Eoghain
Silvia

Escocia
Spain

España
Scotland..

ES por ti ,por quien vivo y sin ti me muero de pena
ES tu risa la musica que quiero oir y que nos miremos en silencio
Es donde todo empieza
Es donde nunca acaba
Es Siempre
Y ahora ES...y Esto no para

dime cuando cuando...

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

Cuando llegará el día en que solo cuente hacia adelante.. cuando llegará la primavera... cuando llegará mañana... cuando tendré que dejar de comprobar el billete de vuelta... el de ida.. el de vuelta a tu corazón.. el de ida de olla...cuando veré el color de la lluvia..cuando parará la tormenta.. cuando... cuando,,, y tu me respondes ,. quizas quizas quizas... y me pierdo el momento,.. me pierdo y me encuentro.,.. quizas quizas quizas..
Silvers Marzo 2010

un mes

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

un mes para cerrar círculos. y abrir bucles.. abrir espirales..

para escribir palabras que van más allá de lo divino y lo mundano..

un mes para acabar los libros y empezar libretas..

un mes de destierro para mi maleta.. otra vez triste en el altillo..

un mes para saborear dia a día ese olor de otoño y hojas caidas,

un mes de cremas de calabaza,

un mes para mirar atrás para andar hacia delante,

un mes de encender velas y soplar deseos..

un mes para la risa y los besos con nombres,

un mes de siestas playeras,

un mes para ver crecer ese arbol... y plantar los sauces..

un mes para empezar de nuevo aunque eso ya no es nuevo..

un mes sin lastres .. para arreglar desastres,,,sin lastres..

pequeño

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

Como todas mis rarezas... hay veces en que me da por coleccionar palabras favoritas en distintos idiomas, sensaciones, olores, canciones, colores, nombres de besos..

Hoy mi palabra favorita es "pequeño" connontaciones y denotaciones dulces.. y no porque yo supere el metro y medio rozando un poco mas... sino porque las cosas pequeñas despiertan la sensibilidad del espectador..  las cosas pequeñas despiertan nuestros instintos mas primitivos de ternura, de protección.. de las pequeñas cosas de la vida.. los pequeños detalles que son la esencia.. que nos hacen felices.. la lluvia, el sol.. un perro que se asoma por la ventanilla de un coche, un beso que no te esperas, un deseo.. una hoguera.. tu canción favorita sonando en la radio.. un ataque de risa que te da.. sin poder parar..el olor de las tostadas y el cafe, la  tierra mojada, la hierba recien cortada, el suavizante de la ropa en el tendedero...los pequeños grandes momentos de la vida..catalogo de pequeños seres y estares como decia el genio...tan pequeños y tan eternos que se convierten en gigantes.. gigantes tesoros que nadie nadie nadie nadie nadie nadie nadie nadie... nunca podrá quitarte...ni robarte..  

better days

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

Feel part of the universe opened up to meet me.
My emotion so submerged, broken down to kneeling
once listening
voices they came

Had to somehow read myself
read myself
heard vibration within my cells
in my cells

Singing ah ah ah ah ah ah

My love is saved for the universe
See me now I’m bursting
On one planet so many turns
different worlds

singing ah ah ah ah ah ah

From my heart with discipline
Put there for the teaching
In my head see clouds of stairs
Help me as I’m reaching
The future’s paved with better days

I’m running from something
I’m running towards the day
when i awake

I whisper once quiet
Now I’m rising to a scream
I am me.

I’m falling free fallin
World’s calling me
Above my needs

I’m soaring
And darlin’, you’ll be the one that I can need,
Stand,
Be free

Our futures paved with better days

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR
"Todo
el universo está palpitando, todo está creándose. Y tú estás ahí, entre
dos
eternidades, vivo"

the woods,,, are dark and deep... but i have promises to keep..

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

choose

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER  Star
Choose a dream, choose a place, choose companion, choose a date, choose your rites of passage, choose good music, choose good books, choose you lucky charms, choose your fairies and your demons, choose your fears, choose finding yourself, choose getting lost, choose laughs and dias felices, follow the signs and your fate, and them enjoy the ride .. till the end and say hello to Angels..

Did you know how much I love you?

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR

Well, you're my friend and can you see,
Many times we've been out drinkin',
Many times we've shared our thoughts,
But did you ever, ever notice, the kind of thoughts I got?

Well, you know I have a love, a love for everyone I know.
And you know I have a drive to live, I won't let go.
Can you see this opposition comes risin' up sometimes.
That its dreadful imposition, comes blacking through my mind.

And that I see a darkness.
And that I see a darkness.
And that I see a darkness.
Did you know how much I love you?
Is a hope that somehow you,
Can save me from this darkness.

Well, I hope that someday, buddy, we have peace in our lives.
Together or apart, alone or with our wives.
And we can stop our whoring and pull the smiles inside.
And light it up forever and never go to sleep.
My best unbeaten brother, this isn't all I see.

Oh, no, I see a darkness.
Oh, no, I see a darkness.
Oh, no, I see a darkness.
Oh, no, I see a darkness.
Did you know how much I love you?
Is a hope that somehow you,
Can save me from this darkness.

flume

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR
Flume
I am my mother's only one It's enough I wear my garment so it shows Now you know Only love is all maroon Gluey feathers on a flume Sky is womb and she's the moon I am my mother on the wall, with us all I move in water, shore to shore; Nothing's more
Only love is all maroon Lapping lakes like leary loons Leaving rope burns -- Reddish ruse Only love is all maroon Gluey feathers on a flume Sky is womb and she's the moon 

hace años que escribí esto, hoy me lo he vuelto a encontrar.. pero ya no tengo pena:)

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR
el dijo... señor policia he dejado todo... he dejado mi trabajo mi casa,,, lo que no decía en esa declaracion en la aduana que habia dejado el corazon y se habia llevado otro...matando y arrastrando todo a su paso... si el polici SUPIESE SU DELITO LO DETRENDRIA Y CONDENARIA A TRABAJOS FORZADOS PARA REPARAR LA PENA-- LA TRISTEZA... PONIENDOLE MULTAS DE DIAS FELICES QUE CUMPLIR---
dejando sin alma, a lo que se llama desalmado... sin coraza posible sin tiritas... y tiritando.. algo que el viento no podria ver... el invierno heló.. y ahora como dice itoiz" El primer día de la primavera es una cosa y el primer día primaveral, otra diferente. frecuentemente la diferencia entre ellas es más de un mes. Dicen que en el corazón de todos los inviernos vive una primavera palpitante, y detrás de cada noche, viene una aurora sonriente..."

deseooooooooooosssssss deseos

Mrs Fiddes says I am a SUPER STAR
I really love "new years" it is just like another chance to start over again, the counter set ..new life and new chances you have to achieve..
stopping looking backwards and start just walking foward, getting rid off sorrows and tragedies, gazing life through child´s eyes
the checking and balance,, generally a good year,, roaming and getting there, crossing out wishes from my private wishing well..
i started this issue three years ago.. i still have 5 more to fullfill the rest.. here we go.. these are the ones already achieved:
Current state.. so happy to have all these

fulfilled:
*Be in love and feel that love back
*living in a foreign country again and for more than a year, finding myself reinventing my life starting all over again from scracht
*travelling by car around scotland and ireland ( driving myself)
*sleep in the beach
*see u2 in live
*have my own house
*work in the secondary school
*ride a jet sky
*go to music festivals ( benicassim) ,
*sleep in tents in the beach
*Swim in a river
*wear a mini skirt at 31..alassss
*see my sister becoming a woman , a little big woman
*hogmanay in another country ( Ireland, Italy, Scotland, England)
*have a cat
*have laugh attacks and try to make happy people surrounding me
*see eoghain for the last time after february
*live in the canary islands
*speak spanish with him face to face
*find peace of mind and balance
*spend a night in Alhambra palace hotel ( since i started studying i got this for ages)
*have a car
*a massage in the arab baths in granada
*visit the alhambra again
*paragliding
*get the teaching post
*find time for me ..
*get the last tattoo
*watch movies at night with eog
(get the projector next time)
*see my friend marcos again in valencia
*live with lolyta
*ski

*go to a spa centre
*run marathons
*come back home at dawn..
*get a fly costume
*came back to glasgow and get lost and a coffee in the offshore
*go to th gft
* travel to New Zealand and Venice
*see bruce springteen in hampdem
*spent summer in scotland
the ones i still have to fulfill, ok i have 5 years more , no rush,,,written in green ( the best colour) the hope colour

* four L leading my life :Love, laughter, light y Life
*move my arse to scotland and live with Eoghain
*see the croft in Gairlogh built
*Find a job in Scotland
*Build our house wherever
*wake up with Eog every morning
*travel around Europe with a camper van
*get the grant auxiliar de conversacion aqui en escocia
*weak every morning with a kiss
*see my family very happy
*get old happy and young
*do theatre again
*see the northen lights
*go to stonehenge in midsummer night
*travel...,to india, dubroknick, Argentina ( south america in general), mexico, thailand, greece, turkey, canada, iceland, norway, holland, paris, italy, etc..
*walk santiago pilgrimage
*ride a harley or similar
*go to celtic connection festival again
*have my baby
*write more
*see estelle, mo, sam, leti, elisa...mike again
*be a warrior of light
*never lose my friends in the way.
*see mervin smale before he dies
*see alanis morrisette
*go to that Mali festival
*speak french.
*dance flamenco..
*learn windsurfing ..
*go back to the mountain cottage with the fireplace and the storm
*be happy
*have a scootter
*get rid off personal complex and manias
 +visit Mayte some day:)
i cant be happier.. al the universe is already conspiring...


and for you all---- i wish you all